Feasting on the Lord - Isaiah 40:28-31

Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, that the everlasting God, the LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? there is no searching of his understanding.  He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength.  Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall: But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. - Isaiah 40:28-31

I have no power but that which comes from God.  Praise God that he gives us strength and power.  I always considered myself a strong person.  Ever since I was a little girl, I was independent, strong willed, full of self assurance.  The first thing that taught me to rely on God's strength instead of my own was when I came down with Epstein Barr.  That just saps every bit of energy you may have.  There are some days that it's a miracle that I can even get out of bed, but I do, not by my own strength, but by God's grace.  Now on top of that, I have pernicious anemia.  Boy, when God wants you to know His strength, He pulls out all the stops.   My whole life is a testimony to His strength.  Nothing I do is by my own power.  There's no physical reason I should be doing anything at all.  I should be spending most of my day sleeping. 

Spurgeon wrote, "As it is necessary to repair the body by the frequent meal, so we must repair the soul by feeding upon the book of God or by listening to the preached Word or by the soul fattening table of worship and praise...If our faith can live without God, it is not divinely created.  If God had begotten it, it would wait upon Him as the flowers wait upon the dew."  I started a Daniel fast on Monday. I felt like God has been leading me into a time of fasting and I decided to put my worries aside and let God work in me instead of me being in control of my physical and spiritual health.  My goal is 21 days, but I may go longer if God leads me in that direction.  The spiritual goal is to know God better and to trust Him more, to let Him be in more control.  I'm putting my health in His hands.  I'm praying for Him to sustain me, to provide me the B12 my body needs and to put the Epstein Barr into remission.  Now that I'm not homeschooling anymore, I'm praying for His leading in my life and for Him to show me how I can show His light in a dark world.  I'm praying to be a better wife and mother and a better servant.  I thought it would be an effectual way to start off the new year.  In these short four days, I've seen prayer answered - from bringing in more kids to Patch club to bringing in new students to the school.  Right now, I'm still going through detox.  I still have caffeine and carbohydrate withdrawal headaches.  I found, though, that my hunger is for the Lord and not for steak or a bagel.  I'm learning to wait on the Lord.