Devotion - "Seek the Lord" Deuteronomy 4:29

But if from thence thou shalt seek the LORD thy God, thou shalt find him, if thou seek him with all thy heart and with all thy soul. -Deuteronomy 4:29

So, I have this dilemma.  I find myself at this crossroads type of place in my life.  We put the kids into the school that is part of our church, and after homeschooling for so long and being a 24/7 mom for so long, I'm wondering what to do.  When we were homeschooling and I found that I felt like my wheels were spinning, wondering if I was doing the right thing, I started to seek the Lord in earnest.  I prayed for Him to show me direction in the kids schooling.  He said to my heart, "Why are you homeschooling?"  So, I sat down and started to write our mission statement for homeschooling.  The very first line of my mission statement was, "We are homeschooling to bring glory to God."  After that, everything fell into place.  I totally went on faith and switched over to a less by the book approach and started focusing on how I could help the kids grow into mature Christians, who could effectively and boldly relate the gospel of Christ to others.  We started working more on ministry than worrying about finishing every bit of the book work.  That was the best two years of homeschooling ever.  After much prayer and fasting, we felt led to put the kids into our church school.  And they're doing great there, but that leaves me, here at home most of the time, feeling a little ineffective.  I had resolved when they first started school to make sure I was there for them when they got home, having fun with them, which I have been doing.  But I realized today, that I have prayed, asking the Lord for ministry opportunities, but I don't really have a mission statement for my life.  It's tempting and it's easy to just go back to work, get my architecture license up to date and start practicing again.  I know in my heart of hearts, though, that that's not God's will for my life right now.  So, if not that, than what?  The first line of my mission statement has already been written:  everyone's main purpose on earth is to bring glory to God; that's a given.  So, what am I doing to accomplish that?  Now it's time to seek the Lord and have Him fill in the blanks.  I'm standing on the promise that if I seek Him, He will be found.